Hi, my name’s Nick if you hadn’t realized, gone through quite a bit of stuff, I love making people happy, so if you’re ever down and want someone to make you feel better I’m here.

I’m 5 foot 10/11, well actually I don’t know, I’ve never measured but that’s a rough guess. I hate how much I weigh, and that is 10 stone 6. I feel overweight. I guess I don’t really like my appearance. “My insecurities could eat me alive” said by ma love eminem. 

I don’t feel like I belong on this planet, I don’t feel like I belong anywhere honestly. Doesn’t feel like anyone wants me either.

But something happier, a few things I love include Eminem obvs, animals, particularly crocodiles, sitting outside at night and just thinking, I think it’s a wonderful place to just sit and think (sounding like a wimpy kid).

Few things I don’t like are piranha’s and jellyfish, I’m petrified of them both but find them so interesting at the same time, my brother got stung by a jellyfish and now I’m scared of going in any water, I don’t like deep water at all ever since I went on a school trip in year 6 and did a rope swing into a lake and I couldn’t move I just froze and someone had to get me out. I can swim but I’m constantly scared of drowning.

I have basically no confidence, expect nothing from life, so then I’ll never be disappointed, even though I still always get let down.

Psychiatrists have classed me as severely depressed and suicidal, so yeah, apologies in advance for any depressing shit I post.

I know there’s a lot more wrong with me than just that, but I’m fucking petrified of knowing for sure and I don’t want to be classed as anything or have to do anything I don’t want too. Soz for babbling.

P.S. Anyone who ever manages to make me smile is a miracle worker.